Drawing

Today I tried something new. Instead of tracing my face to help ground me and my thoughts, I decided to only focus on my ear. I followed the curves, creases, and folds of my ear with one hand, while my other hand mimicked the movements onto the wall. This had a weird effect on the rest of my studio session that night. I was more focussed on what I could hear, like my attention had switched from blurred/distorted vision and seeing faces, to hearing the grind of pencil on paper, and the skin to skin rubbing of my finger around my ear. The colours on the paper were chiming almost singing out like a melody.

There was peace not just in the studio, but also in my head. It was meditative, like I was absorbing more information about the way I looked by focussing on the one area of facial features. I could SEE my ear.

As this work is developing, I can see it being more of a documentation of me. The things I see. The things I hear. The things I feel physically and emotionally. The changes in thought. The changes in emotion. The splitting on a day to day basis. Black and white thinking transforming into the melodies of colour and flowing shapes.